Its OVER! It wasn't pretty and I didn't do it perfectly... but I went through the process and my success came in the little moments. Didn't do it perfectly? Well there was a day around day 24 when I decided to have a drink one night... that wasn't perfect. But the perfect thing was that is all I had. One drink. I was concscious as to why I was partaking and that was an awesome experience. I didn't just sit down and jump into the habit of things I made an aware fully funct

I am so proud of myself as I write this post on day 14 because Day 13 was a roller coaster of a day. It took a lot of self leadership to hold myself RESPONSIBLE to my plan of action as I navigated my way through yesterday. I started off the day feeling great. No cravings. In fact I was feeling as if I could actually have one drink this weekend and keep it to one drink. At this point I was feeling strong enough to resist the urge for a glass of wine when I was stressed, em

Here we go again.... Long story short I am in a hotel and all I want is a nicely made cocktail from the handsome bartender downstairs. Now lets get this straight, it has nothing to do with the bartender, it has everything to do with the fact that someone else would be making it, pouring it and cleaning up the dishes! Okay but this is a learning process and I apparently am asking to learn so I ask myself WHY? Why tonight do I want a drink so bad. Well honestly I am exhauste

What is today????? 6 days...... arghhhhhh I know I am supposed to look at the positive, but really this isn't all that fun. I mean I haven't caved but this headache is annoying and along with this I haven't been sleeping either so last night my husband said to me "take an ambien." Not even sure that is how it is spelled. Never have taken one and he assured me I would wake up and be refreshed and not tired like an Advil or Tylenol PM makes me. Well I woke up and felt drugg

Oh goodness. I knew it would be hard... and also at times easy. Day 1 & 2 were easy... I was not feeling well (cold not a hangover) and slept and just hung out. Then Day 3.... actually now that it is over I realize it wasn't that bad. I couldn't sleep at all and came downstairs at 1:00 a.m. and while I wanted to pour a scotch or a vodka on rocks while I read my book, I refrained. How did I get through it? I put on my favorite guided meditation and felt the peace, the calm

So here we go... this blog and the ones after are about my journey through this 40 day detox I put myself on. Two reasons: 1) Detox from Alcohol. Unlike the last time I did this (2 years ago), this time I am doing it for the right reasons... or at least I think. I want to clear out my foggy head and identify WHY I crave or desire a glass of wine at 5pm every day! What are my triggers are and what I might be trying to avoid. Yuck... right? But how can I move forward withou